Day 11- Overdose

I think that I might have overdone my wheatgrass shots. Every morning I take one shot = 30 ml on a empty stomach. I have felt very noxious every morning after taking the shot. Sometimes I have felt noxious and a bit dizzy for hours, basically until having lunch. But today was worse then ever, because without having taken the wheatgrass out from the fridge I started feeling noxious just by looking at the juicer. Well, I guess I could think that it is just the taste that makes me feel sick but I'm pretty sure that it is connected to what it does to my body. I'm also very convinced that wheatgrass is very good for my body but maybe I have done to MUCH to FAST. So today I asked my sister to help me out juicing my wheatgrass cause I actually could not stand doing it and the I only had half the amount from before. And it helped. I felt less noxious and only a little dizzy.

For breakfast I had a really good green smoothie with sunflowers sprouts, spinach, banana and water. I have completely closed the door on saying no to fruits for now. I'm just not motivated enough and don't see or feel how it would benefit me not eating fruits because what happened when I did that was that I started obsessing to much about it. From experience I think it is a lot more dangerous to set up a lot of rules about what not to eat because that will be just what you want to eat. And if you break the rules you have set up you will feel bad. For me at least it is better to focus on what I want to eat and I do want to eat what is healthy and nurturing for my body but sometimes I just want to have something cause I LOOOVE the way it tastes even if I know it might not be the best thing for my body. And in that moment when I choose to do so I want to enjoy it a 100% and not feel guilty about it.

Did eat raw for most of the day but had some pasta at work since I once again overestimated how fulfilling the lunch salad would be....you live, you learn;-)

Namaste

Maria

Day 10 - Raw sushi

Did you know that when you heat food that is heated above 188 degrees Fahrenheit, the enzymes in it break down and are rendered useless? In fact, the structure of the molecules changes completely, rendering the food inert and devoid of its life force. In other words, when you overcook food, you are actually killing its life force or Prana. "Andreas Moritz"
True or not it totally makes sense to me especially since I feel have so much more energy since I started eating Raw or Living Food or whatever you want to call it.


Today I have almost eaten only raw. Except for a few bites of divine cannelloni at work. Damn these italians know how to make their pasta way to tempting;-) Me and my sister (who by the way is totally sold on this thing called Raw food. I took a piece of Tiramisu with me home last night and she did not even want it....none of us did:-) made sushi for lunch today. But no fish was involved, only vegetables, nori and an amazing dipping sauce  that I feel in love with at the Raw Life festival in Ängsbacka. The fabulous chef that made it was Boris Lauser, the sweetest Raw Food chef that made us divine food every day. I miss you Boris!!!:-)

Almond Dipping Sauce

Here is the recipe for the Almond dipping sauce (serves 10):
Almonds 1/2 cup 
Dates 1/2 cup
Ginger 4 cm
Garlic 2 cloves
Fresh chili
Tamari 1-2tbsp (I did not have any so I just used salt)
Water 1/2 cup
Lemon 1 squeeze


Try it, it is amazing and can be used for lots of other dishes too.


Time to go to bed.
Love 
Maria

Day 9- Worried

Today I read the letter that I have received from the hospital that tells you all the basic stuff that you need to know before surgery. It doesn't say much really but it got me in a very bad mood. I felt sad and scared. I know it is not a big operation but I still think it is very scary that they are going to cut in me in such a delicate and sensitive part of my body. Well I don't really know how sensitive and delicate it is but in my head it is. I feel like surgery is the right thing to do.....but at the same time I have no idea at all. And in fact it doesn't seem like anyone does either cause everyone is saying different things. But I guess the best thing to do is to go with what feels right for me and then just pray that everything will be ok.

I didn't do so well with the sugars today. I'm sure it was my little inner child that was scared and felt like she needed some comfort, so I had 3 pieces of chocolate. I also had quite a lot of fruits but I think that also had to do with the fact that my lunch had way to little calories so I got hungry really fast after lunch. The lunch was really yummie though. We made pesto spaghetti pumpkin, with some zucchini, marinted portabella mushrooms, mung beans, avocado, pumpkin seeds, parsley and orange. The mushrooms where marinted in white miso, olive and truffel oil and sea salt.

My beautiful sister and her Raw lunch!!!

Thank you and good night!

Maria

Day 8- Kale Chips

Had a lovely sunday. Started off with some morning yoga at Elixia in Masthugget. After biking and yoga with only a very small green smoothie for breakfast I was VERY hungry when I came home to my friend Jonas that I was going to "cook" Raw lunch with. We made a very yummie cauliflower "rice" thaistyle. I'll give you the recipe for that tomorrow if you would like to try it out. 

In the afternoon I made some very yummie Raw chips from a recipe that I found on the web. Very quick, easy and super healthy compared to the chips that some of us buy in the store....

Here is Chrissy’s Goddess kale chip recipe.  You can use the use leftover dressing on most things it is really delicious. I added some fresh chili to the original recipe to spice things up a little. I do love hot stuff;-)

Ingredients:

2 head Kale, Washed and Torn
¾ cup Tahini
¼ cup Nama Shoyu or Braggs  (I sub sea salt out to avoid soy, much smaller amount to taste)
½ cup Cider Vinegar
½ cup Water
2 scallions
1 clove garlic
1 lemon (juice of)
¼ teaspoon Sea Salt
¼ cup Fresh Parsley

Preparation:

Place kale in a large mixing bowl. Combine the rest of the ingredients in a blender and blend until smooth to get a thick consistency. You may have to add more water. Pour over kale and mix thoroughly with your hands to coat the kale. You want this mixture to be really glued onto the kale.

Place kale onto a Teflex sheet, on top of a mesh dehydrator screen, and dehydrate for 6 hours @ 115 degrees. You’ll need to use two trays. Rotate kale occasionally to dry uniformly.

Sweet dreams

Maria

Day 7- Going bananas

Hangover from the two glasses of wine that I had yesterday I got myself out of bed pretty early to go to the farmers market in the city. As usual I started the day with a wheatgrass shot and I tell you, that was nasty. I normally don't enjoy the taste of wheatgrass and sometimes it makes me feel a bit dizzy, so it just felt like multiplying my hangover and making it even worse (even if it actually made me feel better after 30 min or so). Some people eat pizza when they are hungover, I have a wheatgrass shot...hahahah

But in the end it was so worth getting up and biking to the farmers market in Haga. If you live in Göteborg and you have not been there I highly recommend it. Pure love!!! So many nice things and it is even cheaper then most stores, all organic and locally grown. Went totally bananas and bought so many things that it barley fitted into my 40 l backpack. I really love going to food markets. I feel at home there and it makes me happy buying wonderful nutrient fruits and greens. Sometimes I can even picture myself in some old italian movie being the italian woman that goes to the farmers market every morning wearing some beautiful dress buying lots of fruits and vegetables for my family....prorbably not being that RAW but making divine pasta dishes and tiramisu to die for.....LOL!!!

Have eaten almost only raw today but I went to help my friend rewriting his menu in his italian restaurant. There I had some pieces of wonderful italian chocolate and a caffe latte with the kind of milk that only calfs  are supposed to drink ;-) and it was really really good! Maybe not as good for my body as for my soul but what the heck, you gotta live!!!

Buona notte!

Maria

Day 6- Wine and pasta

Buona sera!!!
Today has been a great day even if I did not stick to my RAW diet. Started off really well with my yummie morning smoothie. After breakfast I biked to the city for a meeting with a good friend of mine. During the meeting I had my first fruit (a pear) during in these 6 days. Kind of disappointing really thought I would be a lot better.....beh!!!

Had a nice lunch with lots of raw greens and some quinoa. After work though things got out of hand. Went to see a friend of mine at an italian restaurant. As I walk in they tell me that the kitchen is closed which was more the fine by me cause that way I knew I would not need to feel tempted by all the delicious food that they serve there. What happens next though is that my friends comes up to me even before I got a chance to sit down and puts a divine plate with scampi and zucchini tagliatelle under my nose (they had mixed up the order and this one was left over). Wholly crap I just did not have the strength to say no to that. And wow did I enjoy it. But I have to say that the satisfaction after eating an italian dish is not as great as after eating a well balanced raw food meal. But one pasta, lots of bread and 2 glasses of wine later I'm biking home, feeling happy and tipsy, thinking that if it is ever worth cheating on the Raw diet it should be because of the italian diet. I think I will always love the italian food no matter how raw I go. After all I'm almost italiana (at least in my heart;-)

Buona notte
Maria

Day 5- Why so many people fail being RAW

Why does most people fail being RAW? I think it is because they are just as stupid as me. I went to The Raw Life Festival at Ängsbacka a month ago without having been very RAW at all. Maybe somewhere between 20-30% of my diet consisted of rawfood. Several of the people at the festival giving lectures specifically said

- Don't go home and try to bee a 100% raw if you where not on a raw diet before and don't obsess about it cause you will fail. And what do I do? I go home and after 3 weeks being mostly raw I decide to go on a 100% raw diet + taking away all sugars such as fruit, berries, honey etc. I'm sorry but that is just fucking stupid. During the last 4 days I have felt like going back to the time when I had eating disorders and could not stop thinking about food all day. So today when I woke up with my stomach totally freaked out and me feeling pissed of as soon as I walked into the kitchen I decided to stop this nonsense and start listening to my body instead. I will still try to stay away from sugars but I will enjoy my berries even if they do have some sugars. And I will add more steamed vegetables and quinoa to my diet. So what I did today was just adding some berries, some boiled quinoa and lentils. And it felt soooo GOOD it made my body very satisfied and it took many hours after lunch until I got hungry again.

Anyway here is a link to a very good video where they talk about the different reasons for why many people don't succeed being raw. 

I made almond milk this morning...yum yum. I used the milk for my morning smoothie:

Smoothie

Almond milk

Organic berries

Spinach

Mungbeans 

Flaxseeds

Cucumber

Felt really ignorant this morning when I realized what I was doing but I guess it was just one of these things that I had to do myself in order to truly understand that it doesn't work. 

Sweet dreams!!!

Maria